Dana
I'm a Heartless Bitch because most people just piss me off. Instead of feeling the sympathy I probably should, this sense of complete annoyance comes over me.
First off, I'm tired of co-workers thinking I'm dumb because I'm young with big boobs. I carry a 4.0 at my university and I have been working my ass off since I was 14. Yet the impression is always that I got the job for "other" reasons, apparently my resume, certifications, and grades did nothing for me. I'm tired of having to prove myself even though I suck it up and end up doing it anyway.
I'm sick of men assuming I'm a girlie-girl all the time. I went to purchase a car (stick-shift) and was told "I'm sorry you can't test drive one today, but we should have an automatic in next week if you want to try again." He never even asked if I knew how to drive a stick shift! The fact that I drove to the dealership in one should have been a clue that I knew what I was doing. Then he proceeded to discuss colors and fabrics with me instead of letting me look at the damn engine. Unbelievable.
Most of all I'm a Heartless Bitch because I can move on after a failed relationship, I can't stand it when my girlfriends bitch about the same things over and over again, I get extremely agitated at stupidity and holier-than-thou attitudes, and if one more guy assumes they are doing me a favor by offering to take me to see a chick-flick I might puke on him. Talk about your run-on sentence, huh?
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a completely bitter, ranting lunatic. I love my girls and admire their strength in most aspects, we just don't always share the same views when it comes to knowing when to let go and end your relationship. I enjoy my job and can deal with most of my co-workers, but I wish it didn't take a good six months before I gained their professional trust.
Finally, I do believe there is a guy out there for me, just not one to validate me or financially support me. My mom grew up with the mentality that she was supposed to bear children and cook and clean. Period. She raised me to be an independent person, in general, and to always have enough money in the bank to be able to pick up and leave if necessary. So I thank my mom for making me the Heartless Bitch I am today lol.
I heeded her advice... I'm 23 and living in my own apartment, paying my own way through college by working full-time, and driving a car that I financed myself. It's gets really hard sometimes but the fact that I do it on my own feels really good too at the end of the day. Most of my girls are in miserable relationships because they can't afford to move out on their own, or had children and don't want to leave their men. In a ways I'm lucky to be able to learn from their mistakes. I left my boyfriend of six years when things started to go sour last summer. It was the hardest and most liberating thing I've ever had to do. But it almost wasn't a choice... I could either turn into the type of woman I bitched about or I could leave. I think I made the right decision.
Well I'm pretty sure you're done hearing my rant. Hope to be a part of HBI soon.
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