Cryztal
After spending a large portion of last night reading through the
Bitch-bounced applications, I saw that the rejected did not understand, at all,
what a "Heartless Bitch" truly is.
Having considered myself a feminist for the past four or five years, I used
to think that the term "Bitch" was unacceptable. It was only recently that I
realized that the situations in which I was called a "Bitch" were ones in which
I defend myself, walked away from a terrible circumstance, or otherwise avoided
taking anyone's shit. The "Heartless" aspect was with the unapologetic stance I
took when I committed these self-preservative maneuvers. And if I was angry
about being called a "Bitch," it wasn't because I felt I had done anything
wrong. It was because the name-caller was so stupid, so fucking self-absorbed,
that s/he couldn't see that what I was doing was for my own safety, my own
mental health. My world should have revolved around how they felt I should have
acted.
And yes, once upon a time ago I wasn't a "Heartless Bitch." I was a
self-destructive and weak-willed little girl that happily allowed people of both
biological genders to walk all over me, so long as I felt loved in the meantime.
I tossed myself from one codependent relationship (not necessarily romantic or
sexual) to another, feeling that I couldn't possibly be happy if I was alone and
self-sufficient. And while I understand that there are a lot of women that stay
in this stage of their life for much longer than I, and truly do feel empathy
and sympathy for them, I do tire of being around them. Learning to baby-sit
people that remind you of yourself when you were a lot more of an idiot than you
are currently is very straining on the soul. I'm far more interested in further
developing myself as a stand-alone woman by engaging in conversation and debate
with other strong individuals, male and female.
So I suppose that I am a "Heartless Bitch" as defined by the misogynistic
mass, but as defined by myself, I'm just a whole person that knows what she
wants and what she doesn't want, and has little patience for self-pity.
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