Deja-dawn
My life as a Nice Girl unofficially ended about a year ago, but I admit I'm not a full grown Bitch yet. Hey, be patient! Spines don't grow overnight or even over the course of 15 months, three weeks, 11 and a half days.
It's like this: I've spent 44 years being a Nice Girl, surrounded by Nice Girl friends, doing Nice Girl things. Sweet, kind, dependable, dependent. I was well-trained from birth and hard-trained after marriage. Good daughter, good wife, good mom. Believe it, I've paid a very high price for my "Hello, I'm a Doormat" name tag.
I've always had a secret attraction to Bitches, though. In my youth, the only Bitches I knew of were those tough girls in school Mom warned me about. Girls who wore eyeliner and listened to rock music were Whores of Babylon and I was not to be like THEM. So fierce, those girls. They out-skated, out-cursed, out-smoked, and out-sexed this timid band geek. They listened to Queen and AC/DC and painted their nails black. They were going straight to hell. I envied them.
From the painful safety of my Niceness, I have watched in awe as genuinely strong women actually spoke their minds, took control of their own lives, divorced useless or abusive men, raised their children alone, worked damn hard, laughed at convention, survived, and succeeded. The trouble is, I know too few of these women. Sheep flock together, you know? Mostly, I've kept my head down.
Since deciding to leave my cold, broken marriage, I've been carefully, quietly nurturing my inner Bitch. It doesn't come naturally to me. I have no experience being my own person, being a strong woman. And I have too few mentors to learn from. How many actual, live-in-person Bitches do I know in my real life? I mean, even the most Heartless Bitches weren't born that way, right? They had to learn from SOMEONE how to flex more than their Kegels! There is no Heartless Academy I can enroll in, no magic pill, no Chia Bitch I can grow in my kitchen. I've been to the library, I've been all over the internet. So, where are all the Bitchy mentors? Right here.
Country: United States
Yes! I want to read more from Real Life Heartless Bitches
|
