I'm a Heartless Bitch cuz I have to be.

At my age and in my environment, I'll get stepped on and scarred if I'm not. I'm not heartless, I don't think. Oh, I care. I care a lot! I just don't care for useless chatter about boys. I'm Sam and I'm fourteen, but I don't feel fourteen. I feel thirty. I've had my batch of guys, well, boys. But I've met some who are decent. Guys who don't care about society's regulations or what in the newest Abercrombie and Fitch catalog. Guys who like me cuz I have a nice smile or because I'm loud or cuz I make them laugh. Guys who don't care about my "extra" ordinary endowments. I think I may be as obsessed with guys as the next 14 year old chick, but if they don't like me, frankly, they can go fuck themselves because I choose not to care. And that surprises them. In fact, it surprises my friends that I'm not pissed when a guy doesn't like me. I'm self-sufficient. I don't need a boyfriend constantly, like most of my friends. I trying to work on finding myself before I work on finding a boyfriend.

The problem with my gal pals is that they are always bitching or being shallow. And these chicks aren't that bad compared to everyone else. I regularly hear comments from them on the train or at school like, "Oh, how do I get them to notice me?", "Oh, did you see what he/she is wearing? No she didn't?", or the infamous, "I'm so fat!". But I have to say the most absurd thing I've heard was from this gurl Ali Z., snob and rich bitch. She said this: "you think a guy is nice until you find out he only owns two Abercrombie shirts." Now what the hell is that? Why must I be surrounded my such idiots? Maybe it's the hormones talking. At least my friends are a little better... If being a strong, self sufficient young woman who doesn't like to bullshit means I'm a heartless bitch, then so be it. I'll say I am with a smile.