Michelle
I'm not afraid of my anger; but amusingly, it makes certain people very uncomfortable! Sigh...what's a girl to do? Enjoy the hell out of it, that's what! Over time I've realized that if I respect my anger and use it with care it has great transformative qualities. Ever see "the Hulk"? Slap on a pair of green tits and it's a sight to behold!
Yes, my anger is my friend, and together there is no problem we can't solve; and, if all else fails, no ass we can't kick! It teaches me things about myself every day, since I'm pretty much pissed off every time I pick up a magazine or turn on the TV. I used to be so afraid of my rage at our culture's idea of what beautiful is and it's manipulation & abuse of women that I made myself sick with bulimia for years. I became a doormat for needy people and a target for assholes, and it made me even madder; this time at myself because at some level I knew my victim role was a chosen one. Free will is our greatest gift, but so many of us don't acknowledge ours!
Once I dislodged my head from my ass and realized I was part of the problem, not the solution, things began to change. I began to shock those who had come to expect certain behaviors from me, until I could no longer surprise them; or, until they realized they could no longer control my sense of self and just went away.
I finally had the courage to take my father's advice, "You can do anything a man can do", without feeling the need to apologize for my successes or to buckle under the weight of fearful and ignorant scrutiny. I've had my sexuality questioned openly and in whispers by men & women alike over the years for taking jobs that were traditionally "male" jobs, and for my outspoken and at times vulgar language. (Fuck 'em, keep 'em guessing!) I've been criticized by complete strangers for my public appearances with no makeup or bra, wearing sweats and a T-shirt. "Is that a girl?" Why, yes it is, dickweed! (Is this a ploy to see my green tits?) If you're this abusive to a total stranger, I can only imagine what you treat your girlfriend like! Yikes!
Well, until the world wakes from it's intellectual & spiritual coma, it's in our best interest to not allow ourselves to be slotted and manipulated. Adopting a hearty "fuck you" attitude, male or female, towards an under-evolved society's expectations of us is a good start. Have patience, the world may catch up someday. In the meantime, be one who paves the way for others. The most effective way to change things is by teaching. The most effective form of teaching is by doing. What example are you setting? Bitch on!
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