Victoria
Until recently I've always felt afraid to be alone, that just being me without another isn't enough. Until recently I've been in a situation in my life that I'm not happy with. (Not in the school of my choice, not happy in my environment not doing what I want to do.) I just realized that I am living for me, and I shouldn't do things to prove that I'm good enough or to make people proud of me if it's not what I feel in my heart to be right. I have decided to do things on my own and not let people do them for me, which has been hard because I have always been given everything I wanted and needed, and I realized that that's no way to live. I have more potential than that, and it would be a waste not to use it.
I'm leaving a good school because it's not the place for me and transferring into a design school, and I have gotten my own apartment and a job. It's tough, but at the end of the day I look around and say this is my bed, my phone, my life. I have also realized that I don't need to come home to someone just so I don't feel alone. That act was selfish on my part because I was just staying longer with that person because of fear, and that hurts both parties. Basically I learned to stand up for myself, and live my life on my own merits and that alone makes me swell with joy.
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