Siri
I love life and try to live it to the fullest. I value and try to enjoy even
the sourest lessons and challenges thrown at me or subconsciously sought out by
me, in life. They have brought me where I am now: in a place where I step up
and take responsibility for my actions and their consequences. Still far from
perfect, but I am content with me and love myself. My friends are that because
of who *they* are. Not because of what they do for me. Lovers are a more than
welcome addition to my life, but I don't need a relationship to be fulfilled as
a person.
I am in control of my own life. Not by convulsively steering it in a direction I
set out beforehand, but by allowing myself to freely flow with life and enjoying
the unexpected turns it offers. I created the environment to be able to do this
by taking the necessary steps. Gave up a good job and became self-employed
(successfully) to have more freedom, traveling when I can and hoping to see as
much as I can of the world.
Sometimes people take offence by who I am and how I live. Telling me that "I am
a bitch for not having pity on people who have had much more bad luck" (I am not
talking about people who were born in poor countries or with handicaps, I am
talking of people who victimize themselves), that I am arrogant or hard. Such
bullshit! I wasn't born like I am now. When I was seventeen I lived in a
shelter-home, turning every penny to be able to eat. I worked myself out of that
situation, I had to learn not to see myself as a victim, to realise that only
*I* can make my own life a success and that "waiting for rescue" was only
setting myself up for disappointments and pain.
It was hard sometimes to face up to what I was doing to myself and others, but I
am very happy and grateful that I did.
Yes! I want to read more from Real Life Heartless Bitches
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