Virna
I am a Heartless Bitch because I am SO done. Done with the
Dumb shit, done with the bullshit, done with the lies, the manipulation, and the
entire rigmarole of what my parents, my supervisors, and society in general
expects of women. I have been a daughter, a wife, a stepmother and a
mother and I FINALLY wised up and realized that no one else was ever going to be
able to make me happy. I had to do that for myself. Furthermore, I wasn't likely
to ever get happy if I was constantly trying to play by someone else's set of
rules. It took 10 years of a bad marriage, countless bad relationships
(all with virtually the same guy) and the saving grace of therapy for me to
finally *get it* and now that I have it, I'm not about to turn back.
I feel like all the things that happened to me, happened to someone else, because
I have changed so drastically since then. I couldn't be more grateful for
that change either. I can finally see clearly! It's as if suddenly I can
see reality! And I don't mind telling you, it's both alarmingly depressing and
alarmingly rejuvenating. I now know that I am the only one that can change
things for me, that I'm the only one I have to please and that, unfortunately,
that the world in which we live, doesn't like change...and effects it even
slower. In the last few years, I have been heartily dismayed to find that there
are still countless instances of gender discrimination on a daily basis.
That's the dismaying part. The rejuvenating part is that I don't have to
accept it. This is me, this is my life and I am not about to sacrifice it
for someone else's comfort. I am a happy person now.
My mother
constantly advises about the security benefits of marriage, and I laugh and point
out that she's on her 4th and I've not heard her say one positive thing about it
in the last 10 years.
My father claims that I am not being a good mother when I
send my son to a sitter for a night spent out dancing (or some other
non-parental event) and I remind him that I am home with my son every night, and
most weekends as well and since I pay my own rent and all my other costs of
living, I'll do as I please, thank you very much. I would never leave my son
with someone I didn't trust, he's in no danger, and it only happens approx. 3
times a year anyway. I appreciate their concern, but since they don't have
to clean up after me, I'd just as soon they not tell me how to make the
mess.
I'm a plus-sized woman, a single working mom, and an independent
woman and amazingly enough (to the idiots of the world), I don't have any
trouble getting dates, either. Naturally, they aren't all date-worthy, but
that's nothing different than any other women in the world have to deal
with.
I am constantly amazed at the lack of intelligence in the general
Population, and it frightens me. The amount of lies people tell themselves
to justify either their relationships, their behaviors, or their current
SO's. The range of disrespect people will tolerate simply to say "my
boyfriend" or "my girlfriend." Frankly, it just makes me feel better about
myself, and I think that's a heartless thing to say. Some of these people are my
friends, who normally have excellent brain activity but for some reason, lose
all sensibility when it comes to someone who makes them cum. As a
friend, I tell them what I think, but offer to support their decision
regardless. Then I go home and remind myself how lucky I am that it's MY house,
with MY stuff in it and I don't have to tolerate anything I don't want to. Even
in a relationship, which I am currently in, I don't have to make any excuses. I
love that, and I love my new life, and I think that is the essence of what your
site is about... Making your own choices, your own rules, and your own
happiness.
Yes! I want to read more from Real Life Heartless Bitches
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